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You never left me !

Dear brother!

Here comes another long weekend with Easter Friday and Monday off ! It is a family reunion time. I would be as usual busy  doing laundry, buying groceries  , house cleaning , cooking and meeting some family friends. During this busy schedule will I be  able  to  keep  you away from my mind? Not at all!!

 Last summer I flew back home just to meet you and rest of the family. You were there at Islamabad airport to welcome me with open arms. We all had a such a good time together during family feast that you  had arranged for me especially. After few days  you left for official world tour along with sister in law  and promised me that you would be back  in time soon to say farewell to me before my departure to Canada .

I do not understand to this day what happened after that. Events seem to be muddled up in my mind. All I can remember is that you were sleeping very soundly and did not wake up to my cries and sobs. An unfortunate car accident took  you and sister in law away from me for ever.

A friend said to me  “Your brother has not left ! He is on a new journey She is right ! Your good deeds, honesty, integrity , highest level of commitment to civil service, never ending support to family and friends are like a beacon of light for us. But  your footsteps are too big  and my small feet do not fit into them. No matter I will follow you and your principles because you  have never left my heart and soul .

My personal loss

Almost one and a half year ago , I lost someone who is very dear to my heart and soul. Life is not same after that tragic incident. All my thoughts were concentrated on that loss. I have asked myself a number of times, ” Did I deserve this?” There is no answer to this question.

Sudden loss of any kind often becomes a traumatic experience. It can give you sleepless nights, anxiety and many health related problems. You can eventually draw yourself into a state where you may lose interest in life and whatever is happening around you. Those were the most scariest moments of my life when I started to feel the same.

Most people say time is a great healer. That may be true in most cases but personally I feel that loss of a loved one creates a permanent scar on your soul. To do justice for the memory of your loved one , do some good deeds in this life so that he or she may be proud of you.

That old black diary!

That old black diary
That old black diary remained with me for many years. It was my own private world of loving memories. To another person it just had lists of daily chores to be done, important reminders, names, addresses and telephone numbers but for me it was like reliving a wonderful past.
That diary became a symbol of dedication and integrity for me. It was a reminder for me that in this material world there used to be a soul who cared for others. Whenever my teaching days became too hectic I would get inspiration from that black diary .That diary actually depicted life of an amazing teacher /principal who believed in making positive difference in the lives of students.
That was my father’s diary who served his community for many years as a great teacher and visionary principal of a private school in Pakistan.
I still have that diary with me somewhere in my book shelf but I need to move on. I am thinking of writing my own black diary in comming days.